Of relationships past, she said: "I have this effect on people where it starts out good. Then, when I'm in these relationships with people who are also creative, or creative in their own way, what happens is the attraction is initially there and it's all unicorns and rainbows. And then they hate me. Perhaps it's a whose-d***-is-bigger contest. If I go to the piano and write a quick song and play it back, they are angry with how fast and effortless it is. I had a man say to me, 'You will die alone in a house bigger than you know, with all your money and hit records, and you will die alone'... I have never felt truly cherished by a lover. I have an inability to know what happiness feels like with a man. I say this honestly, and this is my new thing as of the past year: when I fight with someone I'm in a relationship with, I think, 'What would my fans think if they knew this was happening? How would they feel about my work and about me as a female if they knew I was allowing this to go on?' And then I get out."
Just to clarify, it's most definitely down to a "whose-d***-is-bigger contest." It always is.
