"My skeleton was all that was left in the seat"
She's back on the scene. After an extended break, the 31-year-old 'Hunger Games' star recently took part in a bare-all interview with Vanity Fair, discussing her hacked photots ordeal, Harvey Weinstein, and her career break.
Jennifer Lawrence also recounted the time she was convinced she was going to die in a plane crash. The 'Hunger Games' and 'Silver Linings Playbook' actor spoke about her near-death experience during the sit-down interview.
Explaining the situation, which happened after she wrapped on ex-boyfriend Darren Aronofsky's unhinged 'Mother!', she prepared to die when both engines failed in the private plane she was travelling on. Explaining the ordeal, she said: "I know, flying private, I deserve to die.
"My skeleton was all that was left in the seat. We were all just going to die. I started leaving little mental voicemails to my family, you know, 'I’ve had a great life, I’m sorry'."
Asked why she wanted to apologise, Lawrence said: "I just felt guilty. Everybody was going to be so bummed. And, oh, God, Pippi [her dog] was on my lap, that was the worst part. Here’s this little thing who didn’t ask to be a part of any of this.
"I started praying. Not to the specific God I grew up with, because he was terrifying and a very judgmental guy. But I thought, Oh, my God, maybe we’ll survive this? I’ll be a burn victim, this will be painful, but maybe we’ll live.
"'Please, Lord Jesus, let me keep my hair. Wrap me in your hair-loving arms. Please don’t let me go bald'."
'Mother!' could have left a lasting impression on the actor, as the final moments of the film sees her character be burned alive inside her house. Of course, Jennifer Lawrence did not die in a plane crash, and she fortunately lived to tell the tale after making an emergency landing on a Buffalo runway. Following the ordeal, Lawrence said that all of the passengers and crew were hugging, crying, and walked away physically unscathed.
She concluded: "It made me a lot weaker. Flying is horrific and I have to do it all the time."
The wide-ranging interview with the actor also touched on why she took a break from acting; her last appearance on screen was the critically-panned 'X-Men: Dark Phoenix'. Being blunt about the matter, Lawrence said "everybody had gotten sick" of her.
She said: "I was not pumping out the quality that I should have. I just think everybody had gotten sick of me. I’d gotten sick of me. It had just gotten to a point where I couldn’t do anything right.
"If I walked a red carpet, it was, 'Why didn’t she run?' I think that I was people-pleasing for the majority of my life. Working made me feel like nobody could be mad at me: 'Okay, I said yes, we’re doing it. Nobody’s mad.'
"And then I felt like I reached a point where people were not pleased just by my existence. So that kind of shook me out of thinking that work or your career can bring any kind of peace to your soul."
Lawrence's next film will be 'Don't Look Up', which will premiere in cinemas and on Netflix in December. Starring opposite Leonardo DiCaprio, she was reportedly paid $25 million for the movie, compared to DiCaprio’s $30 million.
Touching on this, she said: "Yeah, I saw that too. Look, Leo brings in more box office than I do. I’m extremely fortunate and happy with my deal. But in other situations, what I have seen—and I’m sure other women in the workforce have seen as well—is that it’s extremely uncomfortable to inquire about equal pay. And if you do question something that appears unequal, you’re told it’s not gender disparity but they can’t tell you what exactly it is."
'Don't Look Up' will be in select theatres from December 10, followed by its Netflix release on December 24.
Via Vanity Fair.